Keeping Track

November 27, 2009 at 6:12 pm (Thoughts, Videos)
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The year is coming to a close and I woke up thinking of how it seems with each passing year that time seems to be moving quicker. Someone joked with me that the sands in the hour glass move quicker the emptier it gets. That figures.

Funny how it makes it feel like there is less and less time to complete projects. I know I have talked before about prioritizing an really making sure that each thing we do is something that we really want to do. This is always a great place to start. But then there are those projects that I really want to do and I still haven’t touched!

On a different level, many believe that time truly is speeding up. That as the planet attempts to heal herself and to shed the old paradigms, as she moves from a 3rd dimension to a 4th and 5th dimension, time quickens.

There are so many layers to what we are doing and what life keeps evolving into, it is important to have our own personal compass inline with our higher self and the information that we are receiving.

I was given a great bit of information awhile ago about making decisions. “if the answer isn’t yes (on an intuitive level) then it’s no”. Funny I know,  but what that is saying is there is no maybes or trying to find ways to work something out and justify it if it doesn’t feel right from the start. Anything other than a clear yes…is a no, don’t go there.

Sadly enough, I can vouch for that more times than I would like to recount. I have allowed so much suffering into my life and my family’s life by saying yes to situations and people. Then like a train wreck you can’t stop, I watched the explosion blow up in my face.

The traces of damage can never fully be removed and I now have to forever see traces of the damage. For whatever lesson that I may have learned, I am so thankful that relationships and things that are in line with my “yes” have grown stronger.

In the middle of our day to day life, we can find the little gems that inspire us, or spark us on our way. In the same way that time feels like it is flowing faster, kids seem to be maturing and focusing on goals at a younger and younger age!

I found this video on Youtube and it blew me away. The focus and discipline that this kid has was such a visual in to creating your future and manifesting your goals.

Looking around at all the little pieces there is a way that the picture all fits together. Information moves so quickly and it is such a perfect tool for spreading inspiration and hope to the world. The only thing that we have to make sure for ourselves…is that we are showing the world pieces that heal and help, not feeding more into the damaging images that create the feelings of fear, anger and hopelessness.

Painting a picture and sharing it anyway we can… No matter how far away we are from each other, we now have a way to share light all the way around the world!

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Digging up

November 13, 2009 at 7:53 pm (Thoughts)
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lightningWe had an amazing thunder and lightning storm last night. It was cozy to sit inside and snuggle with the family sipping hot cocoa.

A night that in some ways kept the island buzzing on the social networks about the incredible display of nature.

Interestingly enough some things came up at this time too. It’s not always a fun thing to bring to the surface new things to heal and deal with. But it is something that life requires. Or at least I do in my life.

If we look around the people that we have around us in our life, we will see that there are aspects of ourselves that we are bringing out and developing in our interaction.

If we look back in life, since that is all that we can really do with any sort of contemplation, then we see groups and individuals that we have walked with brief moments.

Of course there are those rare jewels that have made it almost the whole way!

I laugh when I think of who I was as a kid, or a teenager or god forbid my early twenties! Sometimes I find myself going…yuck! But there are distinct phases and me’s.

I see places were I got stuck in loop holes because I didn’t have the balls to move on from people or situations that had finished their course.

The crazy thing is when this happens the universe starts to throw bombs at you to get you moving and to break it up. Things tend to go sour pretty fast.

Ha! But all of us can probably think of a time in our life when we stuck around too long, or know someone who has outlandish stories to tell and is one of “those” who bitches about shit all the time.

A sure sign we aren’t listening to our messages that we are receiving from our higher self and life path.

Unfortunately I seem to do things pretty drastically in my life. Or so it seems to me! But sometimes if feels like I build things up and if I get to far off course of the big picture then there is a breaking down process to build straight again.

There is a bit of that going on now that I can see. And funny enough I get really excited about it because I know how I manifest and create. I know that when life looks the darkest, it is right before it all the new and wonderful comes into the physical realm!

I guess that means I make the destruction to build the new…who knows. But it really takes a person to the place of true belief and acceptance in the flow of change.

I have been blessed with my amazing husband. I have never been with anyone in my life who has been able to help me see and walk through so much that need healing in my life.

He has helped me bring to the surface the heaviest things that I have ever dealt with. We are both stubborn and sassy…which is great because he doesn’t take my shit and I can’t wiggle out of dealing with things head on.

But the pain that comes with such a journey is intense. I know we all have stories from our childhood, our past that are the source of wounds we try to hide. And deeper than that…karma.

Karma that we have created in this lifetime, karma that we have created in previous lifetimes…and the karma or our family line, the planet etc. etc. Geez…in truth, we could, and should I suppose, be working nonstop on “stuff”!

It crazy how we all “know” that life needs to change.  That our society has created a selfish world around us that has no regard to the planet or our neighbor…but we, myself included, don’t seem to stop doing the things that create the harm.

Yea, I drive my car all over, use the dryer when I don’t have to…eat processed foods!  Ha!  As side tracked as this is from where I started, I have a feeling it to will all have to break down to be rebuilt again.

Today it is a personal spot that has brought itself once again to the forefront.  The good ones that really hurt usually have to do that quite a few times before they can finally not be a trigger any more!

Damn!  Ha ha!  It’s like washing dishes and the person rinsing them keeps sending them back for a re-do!   Stop it already!

Ahh…but the person I continually grow to be is someone that I really respect and love.   So I guess all the crap along the way has been well worth the mucking.   Here’s to a lifetime of “cleaning”!

The most valuable thing I have learned from life is to regret nothing. - Somerset Maugham

Creative ideas reside in people’s minds but are trapped by fear or rejection.  Create a  judgment-free environment and you’ll unleash a torrent of creativity. - Alex Osborne

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. Albert Einstein

Each night when I go to sleep I die, and next morning when I wake up I am reborn again. Gandhi

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Trying to keep up with myself

November 12, 2009 at 5:53 pm (Thoughts)

frenchpressEvery morning I wake up and get my water going for my french press. Turn on my computer and do the ritualistic run through of e-mail, facebook and the surf report.

Once I get that out of my head then it’s on to looking at my day and then all the projects that I seem to have stacked everywhere…well in my head. (thank god they aren’t visible!)

There are so many possibilities and life and choices that we can run with, that at times I laugh and think it’s too many!

Ha ha! Yea, but that could never be the case. I wouldn’t change a thing. Instead I just have to smile, take a deep breath, then look again and pick from there.

It keeps taking me back to the idea of self. That in what ever we do, even if we work for someone else, we are always just marketing our self. The product is inevitably our energy and contribution to society and humanity.

So no matter what article I feel like writing for the day, what website I update, or if I do massage, it all comes down to joy.

Joy in doing what I do, and sharing joy while giving back.

I guess I write partially as a reminder to myself. Because I’m looking at each of my options now and wondering where to lose myself.

Crazy how as the years pass, the treadmill of life feels like it moves faster and faster. I remember being a kid and feeling like waiting an hour for something was and eternity of torture. Now how many people do you know who would sign up for the option of rolling back a few years just to accomplish more?

Yea…ha ha! Ahhh, well for today I think it will be an article…which will then be an website update. I haven’t shared the love with my beccashealthtips.com website in awhile. So today will be the day.

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Cleaning house

November 9, 2009 at 6:12 pm (Thoughts)
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I’m feeling a little giddy today. I just checked my e-mails and got a note from my shaper that my board is off to the glassers on Wednesday. I haven’t felt like a kid waiting for Christmas in a long time. Probably since I was a kid! It’s kind of refreshing to feel silly joy.

<3This is a light and free feeling on top of the easing energy that we have been creating around the house. I have been so in love with my Tommy and it is so sweet to see that as the years go by in our relationship, we can grow closer and really work together to create things. He really is my best friend!

I’m a full on advocate for the Zen lifestyle. Let’s just say if it wasn’t for Tom, we probably wouldn’t really have a place for guest to sit. I’m a nut for cleaning house! Not really the scrub the bathroom kind of cleaning but the “grab the garbage bag, let take all this shit to Savers” kind of cleaning.

In day to day life, stuff can build up and start to clutter on so many levels. For us it hasn’t really been so much on the material side. But more so on the paperwork, project, emotional and creative side. Being super artistic and filled with ideas, one can get a list of projects in the works. Half started stories, plays, art pieces etc. It’s crazy.

Then try to balance creative with domestic things like bills and paperwork…yikes! That’s two totally different parts of the brain altogether!

But I know there is a way for everyone in a group to be able to express their passions and creativity while maintaining a grounded hold on the day to day necessities that keep us in society.

I know because I know people who are doing it…well at least I think they are!

rainbowBut lately there has been a since of simplifying, and lightening of the load in order to give precedence to the things that we find most important. Pulling in from being over stretched gives a person a chance to breathe. And not only that, but a chance to look around a bit and take in life.

I respect that there is a thin line between working hard to manifest something and living as if you already have what you are manifesting. When it comes to pictures in the mind, we have to really assess where we are in relation to the dream. I won’t discount that there are always outside factors…we do live on a planet with billions of people…that come into play. Just a tap from some other direction can really send a delicate manifestation completely off course.

But no matter what there will be times when we have to take the leap. We have to trust enough in ourself and throw in that we have to try and make something happen. And if it doesn’t, then that is where we show our true strength but getting up again. But if it does work…then you become the story and picture of what the human spirit can do. The spark that inspires and lets a world know…it’s ok to take chances and dream…it’s ok to LIVE!

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Crazy 4am thoughts!

November 6, 2009 at 4:48 pm (Thoughts)
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I woke up yesterday to the sound of rain falling gently all around me.   I decided to turn the alarm off and sleep in for an extra hour instead of heading out early to surf.   For some reason after a full moon I feel a little like there is a lead weight in my body for a couple days…so instead of fighting it, I enjoyed a bit of much needed rest.coffee

But today there is no rain.  Crazily enough, I keep waking up at ridiculous hours with thoughts floating through my head.  Dreams have been fading away far to quickly and my mind starts to tell me that the pictures in my head are far to real…then I’m up!  Today the clock tells me that it’s only 4am and I’m nuts for making a cup of coffee this early!

Like so many of our friends around us, we too have felt the financial and economic hit that is sweeping through.  It is really taking me to a new place or reassessing importance in life and refocusing of goals.  One thing is for sure….it feeds one’s creative thinking!

But in it all, everything “feels alright” somehow.   Like it is just a purging and cleansing of some sort.  A breaking down so that a rebuilding can occur.   It is impossible to look back through history and not see the same waves throughout time.  So to think that we are impervious to such rides is ridiculous since humanity has not really changed in its inhumanity with itself.eggearth

We keep looking for solutions but we don’t want to let go of all the luxuries our society provides.   So we continue to accept the pain and suffering as a result.  I read something awhile back that made so much sense to me.   In short it stated that our society has grown to such an individualized extreme, each person for themselves mentality, that it has thrown off the balance.  And much of what is occurring now is to break this down and reinstate a sense of community and working together.  That is how we will evolve as a species.

Of course that is only something you may want to hear if you think there is a higher purpose to us being born on this planet.  For everyone else who thinks this is nothing more than mere chance…no worries.  Keep living life taking care of yourself.

But that is only one aspect.  Silly to think that would be the only answer.  I don’t know about you but I am thinking that there are a lot of crooked, deceiving and enslaving organizations out there and I am lending to that hope and energy that they will crumble and in their place will flourish organizations for the people.

Yes!  But it all starts inside.  It feels like there has to be that want or desire for change.  And I keep coming back to one thing.  The simple emotions of love and appreciation.  Simple yet powerful.  That has always been a driving force for me and it keeps me forward in continuing to try even when it seems like we should just stop.

And to know that I am married to the most amazing and perfect partner for me is such a wonderful feeling.  It is beautiful to see we  become stronger and stronger with everyday.  Every new obstacle we face together we gain more focus and determination for wanting to make a difference in our world.

Have you ever done something that just feels right?  Something that brings tears to your eyes and gives you this sense of purpose.  Something that sparks a fire in your core that you are doing just what you came to do?

Working with children and bringing educational theater into their lives gives me that feeling.  Sparking creativity and building their confidence while sharing with them valuable life tools is the most powerful thing that I have ever done.  It makes me realize that no matter what it takes…this is what we need to do.

We have a passion for working through theater and the arts.  Inspiring, educating, planting seeds.  But it’s in the classrooms and with the children that we are truly touched.  Our future is in their hands and what sweet and loving spirits they are!  We want to encourage that and let them know we support the idea of all of us taking care of each other!

holdinghandsTaking care of each other and our surrounding isn’t that hard to do.  Bringing it back to the heart gives us a way to really look at our day and see if what we are doing is even making us happy.   If  I’m not feeling joy from my day or what I have created around me, then that certain aspect gets put under the microscope pretty fast!

“Create the future you wish to see”.  It’s a quote I love and one that I try to remember always.  The only way great things are going to come to be is if I take the time to manifest them!  I’m just thankful that I have my Tommy to help me with this!  Thanks love!  Let’s keep moving forward and making that dream come true!

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My Comedy

November 4, 2009 at 3:51 am (Thoughts)
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waveLife is fantastical and strange.  In many ways I thinks that is what keeps us in the game and looking forward to each new unfolding adventure.  Because no matter how well you plan your day, your week…you life, there are unexpected joys and treasures that surface.  Of course, we don’t always see them as such.  Because without flexibility…anything other than what we planned for…is a nuisance and a catastrophe of sorts.

I have been marveling at the mix of breathtaking wonderful and horrible craziness that has been in my life lately.  Absolutely astonishing.  But the funnest part is that it all seems besides me in some way.  Like I have truly been able to be the observer in life.

Just yesterday I witnessed some of the most marvelous beauty in nature and then I turned around and witnessed some of the ugliest heads of humanity walking about and spewing their filth on everyone.

Everyday seems to be holding such contrast and showing me utter extremes on both sides.

I try to see what I can learn or take from such wild adventures of the psyche!  I look around an wonder how many ways and on what different scales are such things taking place.  Living on an island gives us the chance to see cause and affect at a much quicker pace in life.  I think the proper term for that is drama!

Double rainbows, the mystical blue of the  bottom of an ocean wave, butterfly wing kisses and the magnetic call of the mountains.  These are all the treats that make the tricks more worth the living!

Our life’s a stage, a comedy: either learn to play and take it lightly, or bear its troubles patiently.
Palladas

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Welcome to the Cabaret!!!

October 26, 2009 at 9:46 pm (Thoughts)

Have you ever experienced something so grand, so profound that the feeling stuck with you for the longest time?  Like reading a really, really good book that made you laugh and cry as it carried you on it’s wings through the lives of  the characters who lived inside?

I went to see the show Cabaret the other night and left feeling  just that.  It was a whirlwind that took me to places I never expected to go.  I have such an appreciation for really good theater and along with a well thought out direction of the play, the caliber of actors that told you the story were nothing short of the best Maui has to offer.cast

I’ve never taken such a look into the raw emotions and lives of individuals on the eve on the Nazi regime.  And seeing it told through such and artistic and profound medium really reached in and grabbed me.  Most theater shows that you go and see have a main character that the story is based around.  And you could argue that Cabaret does as well.  But to tell a story that lets you see the multi faceted view into the lives of everyone on stage really strikes a cord of brilliance in storytelling.  You walk away with a full plate of feelings as you can “see why” from every angle.   It makes every character more relateable and real.

That is exactly the way Cabaret was brilliantly directed by Jonathan Lehman.  I watched the audience journey together though so many emotions and walk away having been rocked to the core.  Amazing!

For all the trouble that this place brings, the Steppingstone Playhouse in the Queen Ka’ahumanu Center is a great venue for the show.  With a more intimate setting it allows you to really feel like you really are a part of the Kit Kat Club and somehow there watching the lives of people you know.

From the moment my Tommy took the stage…I knew I was in for a ride.  Having him as part of the show I heard bits and pieces along the way through the rehearsal period but nothing I had heard even touched how fabulous it all was on stage!

I’ve never seen Tom in a role so layered and without bounds as the Emcee and he nailed it!  He owned that role and created a character so fantastic that you can’t help but be mesmerized every time he walks out on stage.   The story that this character tells is the glue that ties the whole story together.  It is all that is fantastic mixed with the excruciating pain that this time in history brought.

The Kit Cat Club girls…and boys  in one word were hot!  The costumes were fantastic and on the shallow end…enough to keep any man or woman happy to just to be there watching the show!  But on so many more levels, the dance numbers were fabulously choreographed by Kalani and they were tight.  Every one created colorful characters with depth that created the fullness and flavor to the whole show.

One of the story lines that sticks with me the most, is the engagement of Fraulein Schneider and Herr Schultz.  Rose and Dale blew me away with their performances.  They played the roles so well that every bit of them faded and all you could see was the characters they played so full and real before you.  So much feeling poured from them and they really reached in and grabbed the audience by the heart.money

The two other pieces to the picture of this tale that jumped out at me was one,  the relationship between the American writer Clifford Bradshaw and Ernst Ludwig, the German smuggler.  And secondly, the story of Fraulein Kost the girl for hire who supported the Navy in very special ways.   William and John held the stage with force and this plot was such an important facet to the feeling  of the changing time.  And Karen perfectly played Kost in a role that was smaller but essential giving us a view into another part of society who benefited from that time.

This show is one that explodes with flare and pizazz and fulfills every bit of entertainment fantasy one could have but leaves you with lots to think about and process.  Cabaret grabs you leaves you wanting more and more!  No matter how many time you see the songs and dance numbers, you’ll be begging for it all over again!

This show is running until Nov. 15 but I wouldn’t wait.  It is so fabulous that everyone needs to see it…at least twice!

More information at the Pro Arts Website… http://www.proartspacific.com/

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Regret VS Remorse

September 28, 2009 at 5:34 pm (Thoughts)
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I’ve been thinking about this for a couple of days now.  What is the difference and which would I prefer.  Recently I had a client I was working on that brought up this thought.  It all came about as a teaching moral for their kids but…it made me ask myself.  Which do I think is better?regret

Regret vs remorse…honestly neither sounds very good to be.  Both mean I’ve probably royally messed up something and am possibly feeling pretty sick about it.  Definitely not fun!  But here is the argument I was presented with.  Regret is something that you think about and feel bad that you never tried or did whatever it was.  Remorse is something that you did do, but feel bad that you did it.

Ok, the next layer to add to this thought is lessons.  The argument continued that if you had never tried something, then nothing could come of it either way.  But with remorse, if you tried something and it didn’t work, you at least took a lesson with you and hopefully developed your character or self in some way.

Naturally I think we all have pretty good stacks on either side to look back on and weigh our thoughts on this question.   I’ve always felt that everything that I’ve done in life has brought me to this very moment where I sit now typing this post.  And looking around me I really like who I am.  In a way it really nullifies any need to ponder one or the other.    But….

surfHere is something that I was thinking….of course I was surfing at the time! :-)   … when I am out doing something that I love, there are only regrets, no remorse.  Such as with surfing, I only regret not catching certain waves.  But I never have any remorse if I catch one and totally suck or wipe out really bad.  That only makes me want to try harder.

Another thought that came to me is you regret the things that you didn’t have the balls to do in life.  You have remorse for doing the things you did do even though you knew that you shouldn’t when you did them.  But then again we are humans and we have these crazy things called emotions.  That makes us far from one sided on any choice.  There is a weighing process and multitude of layered reasons why we may do one little thing.

Of course when I think of these two things my mind takes me to a place of potential and success.  Remembering all the great inventors and forward thinking minds throughout history.  If they had not tried and failed many many times, then the success would not have followed.

I think it is inevitable that we notice (even though we try not to) that time moves quicker and quicker the older we get.  It already feels like September follows January on the calendar!  So with such a blessing as life and the infinite possibilities that we can create with it….then I figure we should just keep kicking ass!   We can take lessons from both of them if we allow ourselves…and then just move forward on to creating what ever it is that is our passion in life.

***Carpe Diem***   ^_^

Don’t count the days, make the days count.~Muhammad Ali

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. ~Maria Robinson

Live as if you were living already for the second time and as if you had acted the first time as wrongly as you are about to act now! ~Vince Lombardi

Get busy livin’ or get busy dyin’. ~Morgan Freeman as Red in The Shawshank Redemption.

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Why do we accept stress?

September 5, 2009 at 6:41 pm (Thoughts)
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sunriseI had one of those sleepless night last night.  The kind where you can’t stop thinking about something and if you do sleep…you dream about it.   Inevitably it is always something that I have accepted responsibility for and am in a situation that I wonder if I will be able to fulfill my obligations.

So this made me think.  Why do I accept the stress?  I know if you talk to a lot of people, they are stressing out about finances right now.  Here on Maui things are a big toss salad of situations.  But the undercurrent is definitely that of really weighing what you are willing to pay for.  And I would be lying if I didn’t say it wasn’t affecting us too.  In fact, that was my wakefulness last night.

And for the sake of life, yes there are things that cause us stress that we don’t “agree” too.  Things that are out of our hands.  But my ponderings have taken me to the place of those things that we do choose, that we do create for ourselves.

I had a friend tell us recently, that we actually accept money into reality.  He is studying finances, taxes, etc. etc. at a very deep level and the bottom line is…there is no money.  Banks have no warehouses full of money sitting somewhere that they give us loans from.  It is exactly the opposite.  The moment we go to them and ask for a loan…we accept responsibility for that amount of money.  It then becomes real and then they can then use it to do with as they wish…We basically accept  money into reality.  The fact that we agree to pay it back, allows the bank to “print it”!

This blew me away.  I sat for a moment and thought of how much money I had “accepted into circulation”.  Wow!   And it became even more clear to me why the government wants you to own your home.  Robert Kiyosaki said in one of his books that it only looks like the government is doing us a favor when they give us tax breaks and refunds for buying our home or other things…the reality is that we are doing them a favor.

Even though the details are becoming clearer for me, the news is not new news.  Ekart Tolle talked long ago of “living in the moment”  That worrying today about something you could do nothing about, was pointless.  I remember hearing those tapes 10 years ago and having them really hit home.   I had the tendency to really stress about how I was going to complete my obligations that I agreed to.  Usually always financial ones.  But in my personal studies and practice I knew this didn’t help anything.

Trusting and believing in my own abilities to manifest and create in my life became everything.  And many times it was tested to the very hour!  Whatever it is, it boils down to trusting in myself and the decisions that I have made.  And beyond that, letting go of the feeling of embarrassment or ego if a project doesn’t work.

It’s that strength to try something and put all ones effort forward towards it.  Yet be able to detach in a way that if something we do fails, it is not a reflection of who we are but more so a stepping stone of growth.  I know we have all heard the words of famous and successful people.  In short, it’s not how many times you fall down that’s important, but how many times you get back up.

If my emotional attachment can truly be realistic and I can let go when needed.  Then the stress levels dissipate.  Material things are just that…material.   Give someone an empty or bigger house and somehow it always fills back up again with stuff.  Weird how that happens!

Ahhh, so here I am.  Awake from dreaming of things that trouble me.  And I’ve come to realize that it’s not the stress of actually possibly losing something.  But maybe more of what others will think.  Which is a whole other matter completely!  But as long as I know that I am giving my honest and best effort to each action I make.  Then there is nothing but wonderful things that can come.  Even if they don’t happen quite like I planned!

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My Confession

August 26, 2009 at 4:20 pm (Thoughts, Videos)
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I finally had to get something out. This video may come as a shock to some of you….eeeeekkkkk! But I figured now was as good a time as any to finally let my secret out!

*Sorry Tom….I had to tell ;-) *

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